UNREQUITED LOVE

Wrong time, a bad situation
We fell in love
I fell...
In a picture of my mind
I imagined to give all of me to you
In a picture of my heart
I imagined to be your wife, 
To be all, 
All yours.
You and me.


But I needed time
I needed to run away 
And put together all the pieces of me
You came like an angel
An angel full of love
My heart in that moment was broken
I couldn.t stand so much love
You and your huge among of loving
It seemed unreal
It seemed weird
It seemed not to me...
I see I used to have another kind of love, without any love.
I was lost.

Broken and blind.


Then was when I learned how to love you in the distance,
Where I was feeling safe
Safe and willing to love you without any risk
Large amongs of love and feelings
Like waves and hurricanes making me feel alive.
Loving in my safe zone
Loving you and making love to you 
and Without you.
My imagination.

The risk: 
I could lost you and I lost you.


Silence in my room.
When I was able to see it was too late.
I realize that I never had you.
Never.


You are now with other girl
She gives you what I can-t
She gives you a daughter
She makes you happy 
I can see the smile in your face

I am happy for you
I can’t deny that it also hurts
But I trust in destiny
If you are mine and I am yours
We wont´ have an end
This is only a “to be continued”
...

But the years are coming, and I see you again. 
You are here in front of me.

Now you have your life without me
If there was a possibility between us
we killed it.
...or I killed it.
We put too much responsability 
On the shoulders of fate.
...or I did.
But at the end we decide... the fate
So, we decided to abandoned ourselves
In drought.
We didn’t give water to our garden
We didn’t feed our love
So our love was only living in our minds
...or in my mind.
A beautiful rush on spring
In a old and forgotten picture
In the back of some kind of memory
Many years ago.
Dust.








...
Imagination.